one month

I haven't posted any blogs in a while. It's hard to put into writing what I have been going through. Welcome to the battlefield of adoption. I haven't really had the energy or desire to blog. That being said, a few of you have checked in on me and are wondering what is going on. That means soooo much. It's like a warm fuzzy to the heart to experience the care and love come through the form of questions about our life and journey to our boy.

Yesterday was significant. One month from yesterday, December 6th, will mark our six-month deadline to be matched with our little one. Four more weeks! I am excited and confident that God will match us with our child. I am not worried. I am not anxious. I am not scared. I am not overwhelmed. (I have done enough of all of this in the past). I am EXCITED for God to make clear to us the outcome of this journey.

If I've learned one thing about myself and living this life is this: it is not about me. It is all about HIM! To live life and bring Him glory. It is not about me and my desires, and my heart, and my passion, and my heartache, and my comfort--- it is about serving Him and bringing Him glory and honor that He deserves. Through all the junk that we've been through I consider a privilege that God would call on me to step it up for Him.

I would just ask that you pray! Pray like never before. For my son and the other children in the world that are waiting to be held in their mother's arms. Pray that I would see his face soon. I am ready to hold my baby. Really ready. Beyond ready. :)

blessings!